When I was finally able to scrape myself off the floor and go to my GP (mid January) to give him the bad news and elaborate a plan of action, I was able to ask the questions that were plaguing me about my impending death (diabetes). And was reassured that all my fears surrounding Diabetes losing limbs, blindness, dialysis, death were all consequences of untreated or badly treated diabetes and not the disease itself. In my community diabetes=all those nasty life threatening - life altering stuff. That's all I every hear or witness. It certainly didn't help that a guy my age passed way within a few days of my check up from diabetes related complications.
I was way down the rabbit hole with no way out.
So that I one reassuring thought.
My GP also doesn't support the decision to remove my pancreas. Honestly this is the first time it occured to me that I could disagree with the conclusion this world renowned transplant expert came to. You see, although i'm pretty on top of all this medical stuff and was the one who said 'hell no' to the removal of the pancreas six years ago, given that this was the conclusion of this 6 year -second opinion- journey, and that the conclusion was the same as in 2010, It never occurred to me to me that I could just refuse until that very moment in my GP's office.
I decided to go and see my gastroenterologist as well and give him the Paris specialist's conclusion to remove the pancreas and he does not think that doing so will even solve the pain problems.
World renowned specialist or not, i trust the opinions of the doctors who see me more than once a year for a speedy 10mn appointment.
So as long as the tiny little nub of a pancreas I have left is producing insulin; and the pain is still manageable (no narcotics for pain management) I'm keeping it!
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